I wake up this morning absolutely feeling great that my life feels more in control again.......then I message him on social media- what is wrong with me??????

I am going through it…… the lightworker-dark worker polarization.
so, lightworker and dark worker activation of polarization that happens to 1 percent of us.
it is that energetic pull that makes us do this.
So I meditate and pray to God.
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this something scary because to a lightworker it seems dark and ugly, to a dark worker it seems to be too light and glowy which dims themselves you see
this is where we get that fear and the distaste of ourselves......

By focusing on a unidirectional flow of energy, a strong current can be created, and inner resistance can be overcome. This means that through light working or dark working, you can become a lot stronger than you were in a pre-polarized state. depolarization releases the pull, you have to let go of being you.

For a lightworker, this flow takes the form of service. The lightworker focuses on an outward flow of energy through giving, giving, and more giving.
For a dark worker, this flow takes the form of selfishness. The dark worker focuses on an inward flow of energy through taking, taking, and more taking.
the more I give the more he becomes selfish. Giver /taker.

We will gain power building our polarization until we lose power and seek the polarity to fulfill the shadow self to make us whole.

A lightworker’s shadow self includes the voices of greed, selfishness, ambition, competition, lust, and the desire for power. A dark worker’s shadow self includes the voices of love, caring, compassion, and the desire for authentic connection.
the very traits that I do for him that feel foreign and unfamiliar.

A dark worker may subtly sabotage relationships and keep people at a distance, so they don’t get too close and point out the compassionate shadow self.
true twin flames are dark (feminine) vs light (masculine) energies
and those who are activated are polarized.

if you change your polarization to mirror, you will feel both sides too.
that is what a mirror empath can do....

Time to amp up the light,
Cheers, 
Red Ferrari

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